Freckle Sandwich

grey gardens

grey gardens, originally uploaded by dirtnapdesigns.

i got this in the mail from my hunny today. ive wanted to see it for the longest. it touched me way more than i thought it would and i have almost a notebook of notes for edie inspired art. incase you havent heard about it its about jackie o's aunt and her daughter and they lived in a mansion in the east hamptons and at one point it was so ran down and the house in such a disarray they tried to condemn it. even living like they did out of one room and going around clearly a little out of touch with reality you could still see and tell the class that was there. my favorite parts are when big edie is in bed naked (but coverd,kinda) and cooking corn on the cob in a hot plate by her bed .she fixes a piece for the boy who works on her yard and he seems to think nothing of the fact its coming from a naked old woman in bed. i love how they still believed they were beautiful and could do the things they used to do.kinda tragic but on the other hand sometimes ignorance is bliss. i also loved when the cat was going to the bathroom on the floor behind her portrait and she says"well at least someone is doing what they want to do" lol the amazing part was little edie wearing sweaters on her head as scarves and putting brooches on them. she would just stick her face thru the neck hole... so fabulous... if you are wondering where iam iam mostly on the couch sewing. im having some health issues which have caused me to take stock of my life and to try to figure it all out.im thinking i cant afford to keep typepad so will be starting a blog on a free one soon. i will let you know when i have a link. :) xoxoxoxo

have you ever..

" I have always been able to admire the truck that hits me, provided it’s worthy. This is so much cleaner than being pecked to death by ducks, as described by Maya Angelou in a interview I saw once. Ducks being people who prattle on, taking small bits of your soul until you’re completely compromised. No thank you. Send me the clean kill. And so he did. " elsa elsa

i read this today and i totally know the feeling. its almost as if i wrote it. i remember the interview shes talking about and Maya also said that you will never get anywhere in life if you dont step out of your comfort zone. thats been my mantra for 10years DONT GET PECKED BY DUCKS AND STEP OUT OF YOUR COMFORT ZONE. although sometimes iam weak and let myself get the hell pecked out of me.

have you ever noticed how a bird hunches down right before it takes off and flies?it looks around takes all of its surroundings in and then takes off. it seems as if the bird didnt put much thought into it and just took off but even a bird thats scared and takes off quickly surveys the situation before it does. i feel as if thats what im doing,hunching down and taking in my surroundings so i can fly....

My favorite time of year....

I wont be around much this next week.this weekend iam cleaning and getting the house ready and next week my hunny will be in town. yay! yay! YAY!xoxoxoxoxo

so.

i could never cut her out!, originally uploaded by dirtnapdesigns.

i just switched from my old pc laptop to an even older imac. you know the ones that came in differant colors. i wanted a cute pink one like alicias but this one is a flower power imac and has flowers all over it.ive been looking at everyones blog and its just amazing how differant everything is i feel like someone bought me glasses.so yeah people post some bright photos my eyes feel like its christmas!

my 6 weirdo things

eraser ear, originally uploaded by dirtnapdesigns.

i was tagged by the wonderfully talented laura (i still dont know how to make a name a link some help please!) http://www.lauragunnstudio.blogspot.com/

i realize that i have some pretty obvious weird things about me so you can imagine what i have going on in the ol noggin! lol before i get to that i want to apologize to everyone for being a lame friend, blogger, and flickerer lately. i have had alot of major things going on and i dont want anyone to take it personally. im truly thankful for my flickr /blogger friends and you guys truly are what gets me thru this last stretch of separation from paul.
ok now for the weirdness
1) iam truly terrified of the biscuits that come in a tube,to the point where i sometimes get upset talking about it even. when the kids were little i used to make them pigs in a blanket and have to leave the room or really, go outside to have them open them. once they are open iam fine but i cant be around for the opening. ive had pet snakes,laid on an 8 nail bed of nails,eaten fire. had my tongue split with nothing to numb it but i cannot handle the biscuits at all.
2)i grew up in a small town in iowa and they had a summerstock theater my mom worked at, that actors from all over the u.s. would come and work at so i grew up hanging out around the costume shop and playing with the props in the prop shop and my best friend was a skeleton in a casket in the prop shop named mr bones. it was so realistic i dont know if he was real or not but i know he had on a nice suit.
3)this is recent...when paul left last time i took his straw from sonic and have used it everyday since he left a month ago.i do rinse it out but i always have a quicktrip mug full of ice and tea with a straw so his straw replaced theirs. i also have the napkin he wiped his face with the first time we ate at in and out almost 2 years ago.
4) the inside of my lip is tattooed
5)i secretly love justin timberlake but only when he dances.im starting to suspect i might be a dirty old woman. i dont listen to that kind of music but there is just something about him. i also promised someone i would never admit that....oops
6)after i fold a piece of clothing from the dryer i have to rub it. i can sit with a whole basket of clothes fold and then rub it and pat it before i start the next one....kinda like when you have a baby on their belly and your rubbing and patting their back,even if im in a hurry i will do a quick swipe and pat....maybe thats it i miss my kids being little lol.
another thing people dont know about me is iam a big ska fan and the fact laura was in a ska band totally makes her a rockstar in my eyes.
ok i tag kimmie http://calamitykim.typepad.com/calamity_kim/ (someone tell me how to do that please!)
carol http://workinprogress-wip.blogspot.com/

capello http://www.noappropriatebehavior.blogspot.com/
amanda buttonhttp://www.amandabutton.com/
meaghanhttp://www.dazed81.com/
sadira
http://foolsewoode.blogspot.com/ 

jenny http://journals.aol.com/jennyeveryday/everyday-is-a-holiday/

rachaelhttp://tigerluxe.blogspot.com/
and if no one has tagged heather yet someone should,somebody that talented cant possibly be weird free
http://www.heatherbailey.typepad.com/

i only mean that in the best way heather :)

ok i tagged way more people than i should but sue me! i cheated!

ok so im emotional but....

ok so im emotional but...., originally uploaded by dirtnapdesigns.

this weekend i went to the rugby tournament here in mesafor the first time. by the time i met paul he had already stopped playing and was focusing on his artwork and we never really talked about it much but i would always lay there and stare at his rugby chair and wonder.i had seen the movie murderball and all that stuff but it really wasnt the same as going to the game first hand. the first half hour or so i was overwhelmed because the things that they do,i guess mannerisms is the only word i can think of for it, it really made me miss paul bad. you know, weve been doing this distance thing for almost 2 years and we are just a few short months away from getting a house and starting our life together every single day FINALLY. its overwhelming and its been really hard and im going to be so thankful to finally be there for everything everyday. i cant even tell you..(im such a bawlbaby) but anyway after getting over the idea of missing paul and worrying that they are going to get hurt i really got into the game. you dont think that much about what theyve been thru or the struggles they must have gone thru to get to where they are and even the day to day struggles they go thu. which has been pointed out to me its not struggles to them anymore,its just life and the way it is. but anyway i just want to say that i think that iam the luckiest girl on the planet and i truly believe paul coming into our lives was a godsend. you know,how can you feel sorry for yourself or have a pity party when you see that someone who has been thru so much has done so much with their lives.you know? he isnt just extremely talented hes smart and good and treats my kids and i so well. i couldnt ever ask for anything more. my kids are safe and healthy and i have someone who loves us all very much... i do, i have it all.

one more

LOL, originally uploaded by calamity kim.

calamity kim blows my mind sometimes

Leeanne, originally uploaded by calamity kim.

this is me as a sock monkey,made by calamity kim. i have alot more to say but need to get going .... can you believe tihs?

sew sew sew

darning mushroom,thimble, pincusion and needlecase, originally uploaded by dirtnapdesigns.

isnt it cute? when i first laid eyes on it i thought "no way! could it be?" and IT IS. it has a little thimble bucket a flowers pincushion (cushion is mostly pulled off though but im sure can be repaired) and the big mushroom is a darning mushroom and also opens up for needles. how lucky am i???? i totally blame christmas and everyones cute little wooden ornaments on my new addiction.

sometimes you get what you ask for...

AZ snow fight, originally uploaded by schlabotnik.

so for years ive been telling everyone i miss snow. i miss iowa and i miss the snow. i havent seen snow in years.
it gets to be 115 here in the summer so when it gets down to the 70s im freezing. i have been in arizona too long.we arent prepared for things like this here. it showed on the news a girl in flipflops (standard here) standing in the snow. i stopped buying the kids winter coats and snowboots years ago. the heaviest thing we wear is a hoodie.maybe the snowbirds will start leaving,wwe always have increased car accidents and surliness when the snowbirds are here. on a positive note, i love the light this kind of weather brings into the house. its kinda grey and reminds me of home at my grandmas house and listening to her sewing away in the other room. perfect for sitting on the couch and snuggling...talulaaaaaah..